I'm home on a new years eve night. Not feeling well... Thinking too much also. Made all the worse by knowing that I'm supposed to be able to step out of this 'mode'. Have I grown at all this year? Or am I just the same person who just knows more? Do I keep making the same mistakes? Its seems that way...

I'm going to be an adult soon... 21 years old... No more leniency. Less chances for mistakes so to speak. God, don't give up on me now. Don't get frustrated at me because I keep worrying about her, whoever she might be.

"I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation..."
Thats Paul for you. How he did it I don't know. Ignored the facts or focused on God? Focused on God I think. Because its worked for me before. Just that I can't keep it up all the time.

Have a good new year.

::: Lyric of the Day :::
December was a long year
Still running from your pain
Facades and walls, they find me
And I never felt the same
I'm riddled in these board games
But I'm bored with the game